Cleaning Out My Closet
So today I decided I'm done. This is too much. I've spent the whole day cleaning, perfectly taking care of this hell hole, all the while cleaning after my sisters and I go on Facebook and now even my grandparents are talking smack about me? All because I put a lot of time into something that can make me money and build me a good future rather than spending all my time cleaning their messes?
They said they'd take the internet away from me if I keep working on this. No internet, no money. Or at least that's the way it's going right now. First thing I thought of was that I need to get the hell out of this place now. If you don't like me programming, there exists some actual smart people in this world that would like it. You wouldn't be where you are right now without technology, if you don't respect what I do, then I'm out... Well, that's the way I'm thinking about it. I'm going to find a roommate that'd like to split rent.
At this point I'm feeling like having parents that would tell me, "Get a job and get the hell out of my house!" is what'd I prefer. At least at that point I can do what I want and follow my own path. All they want is me out, I can do that with programming. Programming makes more money than the shit they do anyways. I don't look down on them, no, but I'm also not going to stay kept up in here being forced to not follow my path as a programmer. This is my passion, and if you don't like it, then you don't like me. This is my life, my dream, and the footsteps before me are those leading to innovation, a path paved in gold.
I'm not a trouble maker, and I'm not a little kid. I would like to stop being treated like I don't know what I'm doing and that I'm not doing anything. I'm working hard for my future, but you don't see that, mom. You only see the product of physical labor as actual work. Well, I have only one thing to say to that, and that's that physical labor is not my calling. Also, I'm sure that within programming I can make a much larger impact in the world. I can make a future for my loved ones. But without your support, I feel I have no reason for you to be included on that. Until those that look down on programming start thinking it has meaning, then I won't be working for a future that has you in it. You'll be in my past and out of my way.
If you readers think this is just a phase, I can tell you one thing. That's that if I don't follow my programming path, I've lived this life for nothing. I've worked since I was ten to program, that's been my calling ever since I can remember. Remember my story? When I was a kid my childhood friend turned to me and asked me, "Dude, wouldn't it be awesome if we made a game?". You can guess what I did after that. I starting learning how. I took anything I could. I looked everywhere to try to find out how, and to this day I've been doing that exact thing. So what, I'm not famous yet? I'm 18, what do you expect? Did you think that as soon as high school was over I'd be rich as hell?
If that's what you expected, I'm sorry, I didn't follow your beliefs of what I should have been. I've lived my whole life with my parents and almost everyone else in my life looking down on what I did. On such a great path. Any other parent would probably be pleased as fuck if their child wanted to follow a path that could not only make them a lot of money when they're successful, but also make a good impact on the world. I have a shady look at the elders in my life because of their outlook on what I do, not because I'm too lazy to do work. I'd be happy to work for anyone that doesn't think I'm a lazy kid simply because I put work into my own dreams.
But like I said, I'm not going to let obstacles get in my way. I love my mom, I really do. My rage just keeps growing every day, and this is the result of me having enough. It's time I live my life for myself. Because when it's all said and done, I don't need anyone else. And I advise that you do the same. Don't be what people want you to be unless you want to be it. Be yourself, not the result of someone else's impact on your life. Nobody, not even parents, can decided what you were meant to be. and if they can't see that it's what you were meant to be, then go out and succeed and maybe that's all it will take.
They said they'd take the internet away from me if I keep working on this. No internet, no money. Or at least that's the way it's going right now. First thing I thought of was that I need to get the hell out of this place now. If you don't like me programming, there exists some actual smart people in this world that would like it. You wouldn't be where you are right now without technology, if you don't respect what I do, then I'm out... Well, that's the way I'm thinking about it. I'm going to find a roommate that'd like to split rent.
At this point I'm feeling like having parents that would tell me, "Get a job and get the hell out of my house!" is what'd I prefer. At least at that point I can do what I want and follow my own path. All they want is me out, I can do that with programming. Programming makes more money than the shit they do anyways. I don't look down on them, no, but I'm also not going to stay kept up in here being forced to not follow my path as a programmer. This is my passion, and if you don't like it, then you don't like me. This is my life, my dream, and the footsteps before me are those leading to innovation, a path paved in gold.I'm not a trouble maker, and I'm not a little kid. I would like to stop being treated like I don't know what I'm doing and that I'm not doing anything. I'm working hard for my future, but you don't see that, mom. You only see the product of physical labor as actual work. Well, I have only one thing to say to that, and that's that physical labor is not my calling. Also, I'm sure that within programming I can make a much larger impact in the world. I can make a future for my loved ones. But without your support, I feel I have no reason for you to be included on that. Until those that look down on programming start thinking it has meaning, then I won't be working for a future that has you in it. You'll be in my past and out of my way.If you readers think this is just a phase, I can tell you one thing. That's that if I don't follow my programming path, I've lived this life for nothing. I've worked since I was ten to program, that's been my calling ever since I can remember. Remember my story? When I was a kid my childhood friend turned to me and asked me, "Dude, wouldn't it be awesome if we made a game?". You can guess what I did after that. I starting learning how. I took anything I could. I looked everywhere to try to find out how, and to this day I've been doing that exact thing. So what, I'm not famous yet? I'm 18, what do you expect? Did you think that as soon as high school was over I'd be rich as hell?
If that's what you expected, I'm sorry, I didn't follow your beliefs of what I should have been. I've lived my whole life with my parents and almost everyone else in my life looking down on what I did. On such a great path. Any other parent would probably be pleased as fuck if their child wanted to follow a path that could not only make them a lot of money when they're successful, but also make a good impact on the world. I have a shady look at the elders in my life because of their outlook on what I do, not because I'm too lazy to do work. I'd be happy to work for anyone that doesn't think I'm a lazy kid simply because I put work into my own dreams.
But like I said, I'm not going to let obstacles get in my way. I love my mom, I really do. My rage just keeps growing every day, and this is the result of me having enough. It's time I live my life for myself. Because when it's all said and done, I don't need anyone else. And I advise that you do the same. Don't be what people want you to be unless you want to be it. Be yourself, not the result of someone else's impact on your life. Nobody, not even parents, can decided what you were meant to be. and if they can't see that it's what you were meant to be, then go out and succeed and maybe that's all it will take.
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