This Is The Story of a Noob
Hello, everyone. :) Chad back and ready to tell you something about myself that I've realized. Being a programmer sometimes really does stink. There are so many benefits of a programmer, but starting off there is practically... None. The one thing you have to accept about being a noob (what us teens call an inexperienced person) is that life can be a bit hard when starting off. Obviously nobody can be extremely awesome at any skill right off the bat. I honestly always have the belief that just about anyone can and probably should (as it's proven to help the thought process) learn to program. Not actually make a life of it, but at least learn to do it, as supporting the world is a big thing in programming and innovation.
I used to think that I could make a living off of programming easy, as it wasn't that difficult. Honestly, programming is easy. I'm good at it, and I know that. The problem is programming with your resources and actually making something that people will see and be like... 'Wow, that's a really great program!' It's nearly impossible to get a result like that right off the bat. Why? Because, as there are shortcuts, there are plenty of people taking them. Finding those short cuts is a hard thing to do. Until these last two days I've done nothing but get sucked up into programming an engine I ended up having to scrap and redo because of ONE dependency. Ridiculous? Yes...
I could go on about that one problem, or I could move one, take myself back through the steps of my programming and learn how to depend completely on my own code, rather than using libraries for so many things like a normal person. Really, that's the reason for the existence of libraries, because programming things that complicated can honestly be... A pain in the ass.
Excuse my profanity, and shall we move on? Regardless of what you decide you want to do with your life, you have to stick with it to the bitter end. That's a thing I decided on a while back. Regardless of how much you hate what you've done, you must keep moving on. As soon as you start, there is no end. Look at life like an ocean, your choices as a pebble, and the variables those choices affect as a ripple. When you choose to throw the pebble into the ocean, what will happen? So goes life. When you choose to do something, there will be no time you'll ever get to take it back.
Now this isn't some lecture, as I'm not qualified, and frankly I like it that way. This is just a little thing that I learned walking down this path as a noob to programming, and how I'm currently leaving that state. Yes, as an eight-teen year old teen, just becoming a man, it might be thought of a good thing that I'm such a good programmer. Though, I've always been the kind of person to look at what I've accomplished and wished I'd managed to do more. In programming and all my other interests, I've always pushed myself to do better. I've always wanted great for myself, so that when I throw a pebble into the ocean, it will cause tidal waves. I want to be able to support the world, and help move it towards innovation in great and spectacular ways. I ALWAYS have.
When I was a kid, what I always wanted to do was make video games. I decided that when I was about nine and my best friend at the time asked me the question, 'Dude, wouldn't it be awesome if we could make a game?'. From that day on, I was DEAD SET on making video games. Haha it was actually quite funny. I would draw pictures and things and show off and tell people I was making a video game based on pokemon. Actually, if I had a programmer, I probably could have made a point and click Pokemon game, as that was what I was actually doing. I was drawing pictures for it, though of course I had no idea that you design games on computers. I've always lived with farmers and rednecks, my interests were frowned upon. Though, I didn't let that stop me. I kept on going, to the bitter end. Even at that time, I always had the passion to never give up.
I've always wondered if my interests and passions come from my autism. Yes, I'm autistic, I said to have it when I was a child. At the time my autism was obvious, but now it's very subtle. Though, I can't tell if it's possible that I might have autism. I don't feel different. I'm comfortably myself, and a keen observer of the world, which includes psychology and human interaction. Though, if this was all because of autism, I'll thank God every day for such a blessing, as my passions will always be just that.
So, why do I reference myself as a child? How does this story end? What's the whole point? My reason for writing this blog is to tell all those that are feeling like they might not want to do what they've always dreamed of doing to be observant. Pay close attention to the results you get from what you're currently doing, and think about the possible results with other things. What do you like more? In the end, your actions depend entirely on results, though there is no better way to reach good results than by doing the right thing.
Thank you all for your time, and expect to hear from me again sometime soon. :)
I used to think that I could make a living off of programming easy, as it wasn't that difficult. Honestly, programming is easy. I'm good at it, and I know that. The problem is programming with your resources and actually making something that people will see and be like... 'Wow, that's a really great program!' It's nearly impossible to get a result like that right off the bat. Why? Because, as there are shortcuts, there are plenty of people taking them. Finding those short cuts is a hard thing to do. Until these last two days I've done nothing but get sucked up into programming an engine I ended up having to scrap and redo because of ONE dependency. Ridiculous? Yes...
I could go on about that one problem, or I could move one, take myself back through the steps of my programming and learn how to depend completely on my own code, rather than using libraries for so many things like a normal person. Really, that's the reason for the existence of libraries, because programming things that complicated can honestly be... A pain in the ass.
Excuse my profanity, and shall we move on? Regardless of what you decide you want to do with your life, you have to stick with it to the bitter end. That's a thing I decided on a while back. Regardless of how much you hate what you've done, you must keep moving on. As soon as you start, there is no end. Look at life like an ocean, your choices as a pebble, and the variables those choices affect as a ripple. When you choose to throw the pebble into the ocean, what will happen? So goes life. When you choose to do something, there will be no time you'll ever get to take it back.
Now this isn't some lecture, as I'm not qualified, and frankly I like it that way. This is just a little thing that I learned walking down this path as a noob to programming, and how I'm currently leaving that state. Yes, as an eight-teen year old teen, just becoming a man, it might be thought of a good thing that I'm such a good programmer. Though, I've always been the kind of person to look at what I've accomplished and wished I'd managed to do more. In programming and all my other interests, I've always pushed myself to do better. I've always wanted great for myself, so that when I throw a pebble into the ocean, it will cause tidal waves. I want to be able to support the world, and help move it towards innovation in great and spectacular ways. I ALWAYS have.
When I was a kid, what I always wanted to do was make video games. I decided that when I was about nine and my best friend at the time asked me the question, 'Dude, wouldn't it be awesome if we could make a game?'. From that day on, I was DEAD SET on making video games. Haha it was actually quite funny. I would draw pictures and things and show off and tell people I was making a video game based on pokemon. Actually, if I had a programmer, I probably could have made a point and click Pokemon game, as that was what I was actually doing. I was drawing pictures for it, though of course I had no idea that you design games on computers. I've always lived with farmers and rednecks, my interests were frowned upon. Though, I didn't let that stop me. I kept on going, to the bitter end. Even at that time, I always had the passion to never give up.
I've always wondered if my interests and passions come from my autism. Yes, I'm autistic, I said to have it when I was a child. At the time my autism was obvious, but now it's very subtle. Though, I can't tell if it's possible that I might have autism. I don't feel different. I'm comfortably myself, and a keen observer of the world, which includes psychology and human interaction. Though, if this was all because of autism, I'll thank God every day for such a blessing, as my passions will always be just that.
So, why do I reference myself as a child? How does this story end? What's the whole point? My reason for writing this blog is to tell all those that are feeling like they might not want to do what they've always dreamed of doing to be observant. Pay close attention to the results you get from what you're currently doing, and think about the possible results with other things. What do you like more? In the end, your actions depend entirely on results, though there is no better way to reach good results than by doing the right thing.
Thank you all for your time, and expect to hear from me again sometime soon. :)
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